Down The Rabbit Hole by Holly Madison

As far as romance and relationships go, it couldn’t get any stranger or less romantic than being in a “relationship” with Hugh Hefner. Lets face it, Mr Playboy himself Hugh is well known for his fear of monogamy. Getting into any kind of relationship with a guy like him should come with a note of warning – Enter relationship at own risk! Well unfortunately one such girl didn’t get the memo, and she has written a book all about it!

A small town girl from Alaska, Holly Sue Cullen moved to L.A looking for fame and fortune. Like so many young women looking for the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow, Holly discovered life in LA was anything but easy. To afford college fees, Holly picked up work at Hooters, a well known chain restaurant in America known for its hamburgers and well endowed waitresses. Trying to make ends meet, Holly accepted an invite to a party at the Playboy Mansion. “I felt like Playboy represented a key to the glamorous life – that it would be a stepping stone,” Holly told Maureen Callahan from “Everyone just made the Playmates sounds like a fun little sorority.” But as Holly found out, life at the famous Playboy Mansion was anything but glamorous.

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Holly Madison Playboy Bunny

Over the course of a few months, Holly had become a regular guest at both the mansion and weekly outings to local nightclubs in L.A. After one such night out on the town, Holly was told that the girls were expected to party with Hugh back at the mansion – in his bedroom! Madison was broke and about to be evicted from her apartment. She needed a roof over her head and saw the invite as a possible solution to her financial troubles. What she returned to the mansion, slept with Hugh. It was far from intimate or romantic, surrounded by drugs and girls simulating sex. “I have never had a more disconnected experience. There was zero intimacy involved. No kissing, nothing. It was so brief that I can’t even recall what it felt like beyond having a heavy body on top of mine.” Holly told the Even after the awful experience, Holly still wanted, or perhaps, needed to be a bunny. But life at the mansion was anything but glamorous. Soiled old carpets, old damaged furniture, a house in desperate need of repair. Strict rules that included not being allowed to work and curfews left Holly depressed. Holly may have found a roof over her head and a 3 meals a day but life was not much better than before.

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Holly Madison Entrepreneur

Taking part in Hugh’s reality show The Girls Next Door, based on life at the Playboy Mansion – or what Hugh wanted the world to see, Holly finally earned some money. 2009 was a big year for the girl from Alaska. She left the mansion when she received an offer to compete on the celebrity dance show – Dancing with the Stars. Finding her independence, Holly revelled in her new freedom. She was able to wear what she liked, go were ever she wanted and date how ever she admired.

There are some men who are just not able to give you, and only you, all their love. But for Holly there was one man who was able to – Pasquale Rotella, founder and CEO of Insomniac Events. Pasquale fell in love with Holly and proposed in Las Vegas in 2013. Holly got her romantic, dream wedding in Disneyland and the happy couple now have a gorgeous little girl named Rainbow. Looking much happier, Holly is in the type of relationship she has always wanted, with a man who cares, adores, respects and loves her. She still has lots of excitement in her life but now with a good healthy dose of romance…it doesn’t get much better than that.

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Amazon Premise from Holly Madisons book Down The Rabbit Hole.

The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion—and, finally, the secret truth about the man who holds the key—from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef’s former #1 girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door

A spontaneous decision at age twenty-one transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner’s #1 girlfriend. But like Alice’s journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairytale life inside the Playboy Mansion—including A-list celebrity parties and her own #1-rated television show for four years—quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide. But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.

In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the Mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.

With great courage, Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams—and finding the life we deserve.

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